I'm sure everyone [almost] read the story, yes?I'm not exactly that ugly duckling though, because I am not a swan now.
But you know, the gist is there and thus, the title.
I've done a post with old pictures in the past but I'm sure no one seen it.
Okay, at least whoever that seen it before probably ain't reading my blog now?
A little background story, shall we?
[sorry, I will edit any grammar/ spelling errors at night. I just woke up, it's 8am
now and my brain is trying it's best already.]
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So since my primary school days, I haven't been a pretty kid. [Radin Mas
Primary School]
But, surprise surprise, I was actually very friendly and outgoing.
You know, the kid that goes to you and say
"Hi, my name is xxx, can we be friends?"
I bet TTJ is laughing like mad now.
Okay, actually I bet everyone is.
So, what happened?
Being the "ugly & normal" kid, somehow the popular kids liked to hang out
with me.
Thus, other classmates hated me, but didn't dare to say it out [you know, for
the fear that the popular kid will ostracise them?]
But I knew.
Sad sad life.
Around Primary 3, there was this one time whereby I had some dispute with
my friends and over the phone, the 3 or us agree-d to cut off connections with
each other in school, but the next day the other 2 were happily talking to each
other at the assembly hall, ignoring me completely.
Turns out it was a trick.
And when Primary 6 came, someone framed me and I got accused of stealing.
Then this girl bullied me very openly throughout my Primary 6 life but no one
stood up to help.
The kind that curse you in the face, in front of the class, push your chair and
stuff like that. Yea, it actually happens.
To look back at it now, it's still a WOW to me.
Thankfully, there were 4 very lovely girls who didn't give a shit about her and
her influence [she had this clique that followed her around and stuff] and so
I eventually graduated Primary 6 with people to call my real friends in my
Primary school life.
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Come Secondary school, I was kinda reserved. [CHIJ St Theresa's Convent]
Going into girls' school from a co-ed school was kinda like a big change for me.
But it's probably one of the best decisions I've made.
It moulded me into who I am right now (:
Well, at least it got rid of my shitty command of English.
Okay, stop digressing.
So I was a "odd one out" in class again because almost EVERYONE knew
each other.
Turns out they were mostly from the same Primary School [Kellock]
Somehow, I STILL got into the popular clique.
-_- IKR
and no, I was still an ugly duckling.
Finally time for some picture input?
[I've blurred out everyone but me for all pictures because I haven't been
talking to them since forever so I thought it will be a better idea to do so.
Should any one of them see this and would like me to remove them [despite
the blurred faces -_-], I will remove them]
Yep, the midget on the left is me.
I haven't changed at all T.T
Okay, you get the point yea.
I didn't realise that I was in a popular clique till someone pointed it out to me.
I mean, I don't do things like that intentionally, or try to get attention from
others. It just happens -_-
Maybe because at Sec 1, there were 2 bungs in my clique and that's kinda like
a big thing? I don't know.
I don't choose friends by popularity.
I was approached T.T [starting my "IN THE OWN WORLD" personality]
Yes, I was incredibly tanned.
Why so?
Well... the girl that sat beside me got into the school because of hockey.
So she encouraged me to join.
Playing Hockey for the first time in my life, and getting into the school team when I'm
still in Sec 1 [a complete newbie to top that off], people weren't pleased.
To make the hate worse, I was given the position of centre forward.
Alas... that's when someone decided it will be fun to use my name and go to some
senior's blog to post malicious comments.
So I quitted Hockey in Sec 2 because I felt that many people seemed to be against
me for no reason [I only found out about the blog comment thing in Sec 3]
the caption is because the two on the right just got a hair cut
But even after I quitted hockey, I still had my fair share of drama.
A girl, "C", was eventually deemed as REALLY WEIRD as she kept backstabbing
and badmouthing about everyone of us in the clique [she's kinda outside out clique]
to other members of the same clique.
One fine day, we realised it after randomly talking about it and confronted her in class,
in the middle of the lesson.
I know, so cool right! Like some drama where the teacher gets chucked to one side.
So the teacher had us stop and told us he will give us some time before his period
ends to settle our stuff. [He gave up like 20 minutes of his class time for us]
So after he taught finished his stuff, he tried to shoo other students out of the class
but, well, everyone wanted to see a show so none of them left as instructed.
So yea, we trashed things out in front of her, bitched, blah blah blah.
You know, go watch some dramas and you will get it.
Apparently because I got close to "A" [whom "B" was friends with her
since primary school] and "A" seemed to like me better.
"B" starts underground bitching about me
-_-
It's unclear and a little blur right now but eventually, "A" told some tales about me to
"B" when "B" confronted her about some stuff. I think, something along the lines of
me bitching about "B" when I didn't.
A month passed and somehow, I got the chance to explain to "B" that "A" was
actually the one who said those stuff about her.
So, "A" got ostracised, along with the random girl outside our clique.
I can't remember the details but "C" was also out of our clique [I really can't remember!]
When we went to Secondary 3, we were okay with "C" again.
So we stayed in the clique, trouble free for a long time... [at least, drama free]
Then I had my fair share of family troubles and started to stop going out with them.
They didn't find out what was wrong but instead, started to exclude me from stuff.
That's when I realised that they are not really "real" friends afterall.
Change of friends, I felt happier.
Trouble free, drama free.
this was also the time that I realised I was actually in a clique that was considered
to be popular [yes, I am always that slow. I don't actually feel it what!]
Oh, random note, I was in a Japan exchange programme :3
So I ended my Secondary school life on a peaceful note [once again!]
Well, every single one of us went our own way.
None of us are still hanging out with each other.
Let's just end it here, shall we?
I'm running late for school soon!
Remember, I look like this now!
Need to refresh your memory abit. LOL.
xoxo
Himeko