just went to get his iphone. lol seeing him get a new phone, i want one too~ HTC diamond 2 T.T i dont want an iphone, i could have gotten one back last yr. i still dont like iphone xD i rather get a itouch just for music and videos. anyway, if i can change htc i would be happy~ if not i will just buy itouch first :) eating ducky rice now T.T needa do my FYP shit right after this... sigh~~ why so many things to do sia :(
i have not been keeping promises.. SIGH. :( i'm sorry to everyone that i've not kept my promise to... i'm just so busy i have no idea when to do what anymore ._. anyhow, ft island is coming SG on 26/27 june. woohoo :) i wanna see my baby hongki!
and fuck my obsession with headphone is NEVER ENDING. i will get my skull candy lowrider this or next month. and i've got my eyes on WSCE Oboe Gold & white. HOWEVER, i'm positive WSCE is not sold in SG, means i have to import, do online purchasing. kinda too expensive... i noticed it cos jaejoong was wearing the black one, and i went to do some searches and found a CHIO WHITE ONE. I WANT IT SO BADLY.
is love. :) although the skins are dam limited. but i like the blogging layout all the jap words make me go "aaaawwwwwww" anyway. was lvl 200 yesterday. cash shop down when i 200. no megas T.T so sad.
tyty polar bear [ku54n4gi] for going to get all the 200 things :) ty to qad p4m (pure4mage) for everything~ the pots, couple top, scrolls, 2x exp. ty to sweet[reins/zsgsinz] for nothing except pulling me back to maple F3F3 ty to Meow [maomaoz] or training with me even though he 200 le, and for the 15k exp card you give me, the friendship top. ty to mougu [aidetianshi/himebonheur] for always visiting me and bringing her sigina along and the friendship ring. ty wilmo [starlocked] for all the cash so far, i lost count of how much cash already. since i play maple till now at least got 200k cash i believe that you give me... and another 200k that you sell me at dirt cheap price. knew you since i was lvl 4x, and you've been there for me when i had a hard time with my r/s, on the phone hearing me cry. ty noob for the ringer char. ty didi [w0shijerzhu] for the pumpkin lantern. that was my only motivation to 200 after you said you'll buy me one xD
ty to whoever that still made an effort to mega me after that. those who didnt, dont expect from me.. haha.
i didnt go to the gamefest but i got the PB hat and overall! ty meow for getting both the hat and overall for me, but the hat p4m gave me the code first so i dont need it le. thanks for the effort though! <3 ty p4m for the PB hat :)
now i can have more time for schoolwork and life and work :) need to bring my laptop for repair very soon. to fix the shitty problems~ sigh! completed all my report shit now, waiting for the last set of info to be sent to me then i can do... sigh they send so slow means i have to stay up late to do. got alot of things to research on for my FYP. sigh~ stress stress stress. :( shall go eat my dinner now and maple.
call got one leg? lol. lame hpy sms me just to ask. I GOT TWO LEGS. anyway. I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED! this sat will be meeting my babes. AHH it's been so long~ woohoo chalet with em :) omg girls you have no idea how much i miss you! i will be there once i lvl 200 :) but pardon me, i will be spending some time doing reports there. cos intend to complete all my responsibilites this weekend for report. so i dont have to stress over all these shitzo. need alot of time for FYP, lots of research to be done man. omg why~ i keep stressing myself? gonna be back to working soon, happy happy :) been long time since i last worked, cos of my gastric. "find a job you love, and you'll never have to work a single day" so true, i never feel like i'm working :)
It's so sad~ people always call me dao. sorry la, i really have BAD EYESIGHT WHAT. that i give up looking at my environment T.T If i'm going to the library, my eyes will be SET to library only. my brain process this information in the simplest way:
Target: Library Phase 1: Target located Phase 2: Path to target destination determined Phase 3: Set off to target destination Phase 4: Reached target destination Phase 5: Gets ready for new task.
SIMPLE ANOT! looking around is not in my agenda. cos of my eyesight~ so stop msning me and say i dao please T.T i really really don't mean it~
WAH LAOOOOOO the baby just came my room and FART. nb.. -_- still swing her panties in front of me and i'm EATING.
Life is fufilling, and i feel that i have enough and what i want nw. whatever obstacles, when time comes they will be okay. somehow, someway, they will be. some people think i'm stuck in the past. nope, i don't love him anymore, not even an ounce. I wish all the best to him, whatever he's doing or who he's with. someday if i see you again, I can smile and walk away happily. Unjust? it's over. But i won't forget. Happy and painful memories, reminisce. It's just that i dont wanna fall in love anymore. or maybe i do, but I dont wanna go through all the hurt and stuff. I just want to be happy.
truth to be told, i'm just afraid. friends will always be there for you, and they last. even if they are mere aquaintances, when you meet again you will exchange greetings. relationship can turn ugly, and we won't even be friends anymore. I'm not suitable nor worthy to be loved, neither am I worthy to love as of now. I just want to be happy.
I'm an ugly person. I know myself too well. I control but don't like to be controlled. I have a lousy temper but gets angry if others show me the same attitude. I'm demanding but i never do enough to show my appreciation I'm not good at expressing myself positively but expects others to do so. I cannot handle my emotions and I expect others to understand. I like to keep things to myself and don't always say what I mean. I have the "I can but you can't" mindset. I call others selfish, but who am I to judge? Call it unfair, that's just the way it is, the way i am.
ごめん...怖いです、愛は。 상처?흉터?ありえない。 I just want to be happy, and stay happy. I don't want to leave my comfort zone for now.
out with kiki today. haha forgot to bring my wallet so he went back with me to take. then we went to east coast to eat. so sad, my stall CLOSED AGAIN. cos i think we went too early in the day. zzzz damn disappointed. 2nd time already, the last time went with faith also BO OPEN. :( oh well. then we went to causewaypoint to see my headphone OMG THEY HAVE THE SKULLCANDY LA NB I WANT TO BUY. SO MANY NICE ONES. and cos of yoochun, i'm getting attracted to aud-tech SJ5 too. and they carry the LIMITED PINK TOO?! T.T i want skull candy lowrider... sigh no money ;( anyone wanna buy for me~~ ^^ ty kiki for today :)
to kiki for delivering subway all the way to my class on monday :) sorry i didnt know you wanted to see me today and ran to mrt le :x anyway, just one more level and goodbye to no life days. woohoo :) i shall save the leveling for sat. lvl 200 draco & virgin echo :x i shall take a ss of some stuff i got with friends in maple xD tmr ba~ going with kiki to cwp tmr to see my headphones at stereo! since no more jap class.. i can spend on other stuff after paying back my debt. go see what brands they carry :) stereo here i come!
this morning... woke up 6am, gastric was fucking pain again. couldnt even walk and move until about almost 10am. went over to polyclinic first then got referred to hospital. knn... a&e also must wait so long. if i really dying, i think by the time my turn, i already dead. suay like hell, got a rookie doctor, he seem so blur. he suspect is appendicitis. then another senior female doc came over, decided that it should be gastroentitis. took some medication then held under observation for 2 hours. it was damn messy there, first the rookie doc came over say prepare me for discharge, and also write to polyclinic to give me the medication subsequently. then the senior one came over say give me mc + refer me to gastro-logist. next came the nurse, who gave me some paper and told me i can go. in the end, i left with NO mc nor letter for medication nor referral letter. well done much? -.- shall go eat something now then rest...
mia mia mia mia mia i've been having gastric problems for the past week. lying and groaning on my bed. and am still not getting better. (Sigh) whatever.........
thanks noob for the loan. and michelle for the offer to lend me your lappy <3 i shall get back to groaning in pain.
AND OH MY GODDDD YAMAPI AND RINA(his sister) ATTENDED DBSK CONCERT AT SAITAMA T.T their mum went as well! rina is a fan of jaejoongieeee and yoochun. so expected of girls to like jaejoongie in japan. totally the "pretty boy taste" of theirs. and the mum? of cos is Yunho ~.~ i dont understand why older ladies like yunnie~~ omg how i wish i was at their dome concert too... :(
sidenote, here's super junior's latest MV for their new song It's You
I think it's damn awesome, considering how the lines are well distributed. it used to be like K.R.Y and Sungmin as vocals while the rest are dancers. considering how kibum doesnt even sing... i dont understand why they insist on putting him in the MV. Is this really what E.L.F want by keeping it as 13?
knn. now totally no need go for my jap class anymore. _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ laptop SPOILT. guess what, motherboard spoil + keyboard. so? had to replace. cost? $700. narbei. used up all the savings i have plus still need borrow from people. now i got no class to attend, plus owe people money. So dont think of asking me out, i will be no lifer and stay at home play game. do i look like i have a fucking choice? _|_ fucking suay like DOG.